WTF IS IT THAT YOU WANT FROM ME?
nak couple.

I'm waiting for the storm to stop twirling in my head now.
It's been more than a week I wake up having the room and everything else spin around in my head.

On Friday, I went to work at 11, to find out that everyone else is coming at 12.
Fearful of my self, I waited at the mamak and had some breakfast. Unfortunately, the one hour I was left alone caused me to walk down to my basement and open my one too many pandora boxes, by the time it was 12, I felt pretty massively down and depressed.
I know I am prone to depression, and that I should NEVER be left alone more than 10 minutes without a task to settle.

On the way back home, I sat at a bench at Taman Jaya, watching the jogggers well, jog by. The sky turn pink and purple and gray. Watched couples sitting closer as it grew darker. Wind was cold. Watched the ripples gravitate towards me.
I don't know how long I sat there, but by the time I realised my fingers were freezing, it was dark and the lights were on.
Rushed back home and fell asleep.

I've been trying to distract myself, but this... headache, pain, whatever this thing is, it's getting more worse.
So I have decided that I should for once not think I'm too strong for anything and go for a check up.
I do think my blood pressure is low, and that since I was 12 or rather, forever, I've been called a living corpse for being so pale. My mom even said it to my face that I've never blushed before.
I did think about getting my blood checked in fear of anaemia, but nah.

So yeah, now is the time. I guess.

I think it's a sign.

Just the day before the accident, I had lunch with my boss at a mamak near the office.
While we ate our lunch, a man came to our table, tall, sweating, said hi and he was trying to sell this alarm thing for sleepy drivers.

Since he didn't seem dodgy, and the poor thing was sweating profusely, I invited him to sit down and that we'll listen to what he has to say about his product.

So he sat and talked enthusiastically about his sleepy alarm, it looked like a hearing aid, those you balance/stick on your ear, and when your head is not  in a straight position, meaning you look down or whatever this... deafening ringing sounds goes off, waking you up.

Talked about how safe it was, if the deafening decibel can damage my precious 21 year old ear drums, and he said it was perfectly safe and that they've had no complaints thrown back at them.

After he was relaxed enough, not as sweaty as just now, we thanked him for his time, and vice versa, more like it, and left.