I found a new place to be sad.
This place, even if I sat and cried for hours no one would question me.
I will probably be rewarded with a pat on the back and a comforting smile to go with it.

Everyone there is secretly sad.
Maybe not secretly. It's relatively quiet, far from everywhere, yet so cheap for me to go.

I want to go there now, in fact, even though I'm not sad.
It's my favourite place.
I want to go there.

And listen to Split Sides.
And Interpol's No I in Threesome.
On repeat.

I went there the other day, I was happy when I found the place.
Sat there alone for I don't know how long.
It didnt seem long. I saw dark clouds, strong winds, raindrops, yet it was so quiet.
When the storm ended it was still quiet.

Nak pergi. Now.

Honestly, really, honestly, I would love to wear gladiator sandals.
Unfortunately, everyone is wearing them, which makes me sick to the stomach.
But really, I want to wear a brown one. Or a beige. Or a light green one. Really.
Because i've always been a fan of strappy-straps, and gladiators we normally see are flat. And I like things that are flat. I wish I was flat.

Honestly, I've been wanting FMBs since I was in high school. The thought of having shiny PVC, or soft leather. MM. Nice. Sigh...FMBs.
And platform boots. Like those army ones.

Honestly, I am against black tights. And white. People only wear white for ballet.
I saw black knitted ones the other day, they were really nice, I've been looking for knitted ones for a long time.
Unfortunately they're black. So I didn't buy them.
Everytime I see people wear black ones with lace at the ends I feel the urge to burn them.
But that would be just mean. Black is a versatile colour anyway.

Today, I splurged on plants. PLANTS. 2 for my mom, 2 for me.
My mom's birthday is tomorrow, she'll be... hmm. She'll be 51.
I bought her periuk kera, her favourite, a healthy one, and a flowery plant with little lilac flowers and the leaves look like purple-magenta butterflies. #CA1F7B to be exact. Beautiful.

And I bought a new blusher. It makes me look so pretty I cant wait to wake up tomorrow to wear it. Right after I put some on just now, I couldn't stop smiling. Hana probably thought I was over-reacting. But hey whatever man, I'm like blushing (fake-ly) but like whatever seriously.
I want to put some on right now.

Anyway, I want to wear gladiators. One day. I'm always too slow to catch up anyway, so when people have moved on to something else, flip flops or I don't know. Jelly flats or whatever you call them, I will wear my outdated gladiators. In light green.
If I ever find one.

And when the weather is cold and I look hot enough, I will wear my FMBs.
And get laid. Meheheheheheheheh.